1. |
riding my old bike
03:25
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(simpsons dialogue)
It stops I wake up most nights (x2)
I don't know that man, that man anymore(x2)
I see riding my old bike (x2)
fire fire in my head (x2)
theres a hole where I think there used to be my dad
When I was five years old I never thought I'd end up hating you
and seeing big black burn marks on the highlights what we were supposed to do
And epitome of male disappointment where my father would
walk me down the aisle
Or standing in speech at your funeral trying to get out,
"I miss my father but I don't even know if he was real"
"I miss my dad but I don't think I ever really knew that man"
I see riding my old bike (x2)
fire fire in my head (x2)
theres a hole where I think there used to be my dad
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2. |
swing low
02:59
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Swing low
Sweet Chariot
Comin' for to carry me home (x2)
Is this it all over again,
again now worse than before?
Swing Low
Sweet Chariot
Is it really worse than before
Swing Low
Sweet Chariot is it really worse than before?
Is this it all over again?
again now worse than before?
Swing Low
Sweet Chariot
Lord have mercy on my soul
Swing Low
Sweet Chariot
Lord have mercy on my soul
Swing low
Sweet Chariot
Comin' for to carry me home
Swing low
Sweet Chariot
Comin' for to carry me home
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3. |
expecting it
04:30
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Calling all of my brain cells
now 1, 2, 2, 4 get in line
Now is there any more room for
another bad thing in my life?
Now look straight at me
at the TV screen
another sign
what life could be
Now look straight ahead
and just hold your breath
until you die
I never thought I'd dread the holidays
Now calling brain cells 1,2, and 3,
and can you even still hear me?
And do you remember back in August
my Aunt just died and my sister called me
and she had more bad news after aunt
and when she told me about my dad
and all I could do was ask her what
but the words she told me it was like
I was expecting it
Now look straight ahead at
at the TV screen
another sign
what life could be
Now look straight ahead
and just hold your breath
until you die
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4. |
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I'm mean when I'm sober
and I'm mean when I'm drunk out loud
I get that mean from my father
I gotta need to push everyone down
And I'm mean to this body
get mean when my body's insight
get mean in my brain
and that mean keeps me up all night
I wanna ask u a question
who can feel nostalgic when theres nothing to look back to?
And I'm mean to this body
get mean when my body's insight
and the parts of me you make up
I wish I didn't have that much
And I'm mean to this body
get mean when my body's insight
get mean in my brain
and that mean keeps me up all night
I wanna u a question
I'm not going to like the answer to.
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5. |
your mother
03:20
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Your mother ate you
thats just how it goes sometimes
your mother carriers you
so you could survive
Your mother has the car packed
to leave fast when its time
Your mother has the car packed
to leave fast when its time
your mother keeps you under
starving her self for weeks at a time
your mother pushes you from the nest
so you can fly
My mother she told me
Phil made her feel stupid
and I understood
Noel big and tall
Noel big and tall
Oh, Noel I watched her
be put down all the time
Your mother has the car packed
to leave fast when its time
your mother keeps you under
starving her self for weeks at a time
your mother pushes you from the nest
so you can fly
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6. |
r u ok?
02:31
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What do you do with all that anger?
What do you with all that mistrust?
What do you do when life has fucked you?
What do you do when your dad is gone?
And when I walk around
I want someone to ask me
are you okay?
What do you do with the girl in the mirror
who grabs your sides every time your near?
What do you do to improve your mood
when everyone else is so fucking rude?
And when I walk around
I want someone to ask me
are you okay?
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7. |
shuts the door
02:04
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And he tells me jokes
and he raises me
and all the things we did before
and then he shuts the door
shuts the door
its so awful and clear to me now
and its not what you had
not what I had
and is it something bad?
I lost my dad
And he tells me jokes
and he raises me
and all the things we did before
and then he shuts the door
shuts the door
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